Frozen heart..?

Today has been an interesting morning. First of all.. I couldn’t sleep at all during the night. I woke up many times during the night with fear in my voice. And I thought it would get better as soon as I got up and got ready for the day. But no..

I get up and goes to the bathroom for a shower. And as I go in the bathroom, I get this feeling that something isn’t right. I brush it off. Throws my clothes on the floor and steps into the shower.
As I’m showering, I just feel like, ”you should look now..”, so I do. And what I’m about to see freaks me out a little. Not a lot but a little.
My underwear that’s on the bathroom rug, moves towards me. Slowly.
And I see everything that’s going on because of the glass doors that the shower has. They keep moving towards me and then stops. So I look away and try and finish my shower and when I look at them again, they are right by the glass door. And I froze. But with a force, they are fly right back to where they once were. Like 20 cm away.

I brush it off. Because I can’t look into everything that happens to me. If I did, I wouldn’t have time for anything else. So once again, I try and finish my shower.
But then I make the mistake of turning around. BIG MISTAKE!
The first thing I see is this young woman. Just a little shorter than me, and I’m 167 cm.
She’s all black. Like she’s wearing a black sheet over herself. But I know it’s a woman. A younger woman. But there’s something about her that says ”I’m not friendly.. Not at all..”.
And I’m not arguing with that! But as soon as I saw her, my heart dropped to the floor.
I has not ready for the feelings she was gonna give me, or even the fear that she was gonna give me.
Like her heart was frozen, and at that moment. I knew that she was the spirit that had followed my mom to work that day.

But now it’s my job to find out who she is. Either with or without this woman’s help.

Bored.

I’ve been bored if I may say so. No paranormal, no spirits or anything. I know I have myself to ‘’blame’’. Well, not blame, because I just did my job. What I should be doing. I’ve cleaned the apartment and it’s a peaceful place to live now. Sure, I feel someone being here and looking around, but that only because of the woman that’s ‘’married’’ into our family. Not married in yet but probably will be soon enough. But anyway.. Her brother is the one that’s looking around and yes, it was the man that was an evil spirit here in the apartment, but not anymore.
Other than that, there’s nothing more in this apartment. Only people that have moved on and just comes by to look in on their family. So yeah, I do have spirits around me and they are so friendly and it’s nice to have a little talk to them, but other than that, nothing really happens. And trust me, I’m happy about that. Means that no one is unhappy or lost.

I’ve been talking to my mom and stuff has happened while I’ve been away, so I have things to work out when I get back there tomorrow. Hopefully nothing too bad. But the thing is.. Whoever or whatever it is, it has followed her to work and that’s not okay if I may say so. So I need to read her and feel through her what’s been going on while I’ve been away. But I think it’s just the man in the apartment trying to talk but can’t because I’m not there. But whoever it was, it was not okay because she got scared. She can’t see or hear them so she doesn’t get a warning like I do. She’s just a little psychic.

When you ask for help..

This is me and a really close friend. I was updating my laptop and it wouldn’t work, so I asked for help and this is what I got. What a friend I got. Right..? Kidding, he’s the best, (most of the time).

School again..?

Great start to this Friday morning.. Not..
Workers outside working and making loud f*cking sounds and then the damn neighbors start to break their apartment or something! Great day today too apparently. Well then, what to do with this Friday morning. I have nothing planned, so I guess being bored out of my mind is in order. I’m still having pain in my back so it’s probably best not to do so much anyway. Right now the pain in my back goes from ouch to f*ck, real fast and I really don’t know what to do. Maybe a massage wouldn’t be such a bad thought..? But I haven’t lived in my hometown for a really long time so I don’t know where to go to get one. I’ll figure it out.

On another note, I’ll be starting school again soon I think. It will be more in the business and not in care. I really wanted to be an assistant nurse, but my body really couldn’t take it. It became too much and it feels like this would be so much easier for me to do. I like business too so I don’t see it as a loss, just another challenge. And it might even go better than I think, because I have my family closer now.

Crap, this blog post is me talking and being boring. I really don’t have much to say about my ‘’normal’’ life right now. And don’t take that I said normal as in ‘’normal’’ in a bad way, just meant, normal as beside the paranormal. The boring part of my life. Well, not boring but maybe just not as exciting as my paranormal life. Sure, my paranormal life is always there but I don’t want it to be ALL that I do, you know?I could do my paranormal life 24/7, but I need some of my own fun. Paranormal life is ‘’fun’’, not to be rude against the spirits, I like helping them and making sure they find what they are looking for or what they need to get off their chest to be able to move on. When I say that the paranormal is fun, I don’t mean ‘’yay, dead people!’’, I mean, ‘’I get to help and feel useful’’. You know? And of course, you get to see them happy one more time before the move on, or when telling the person that still is alive, that the person who just died, is happy now that they have gotten what they came back for.

Of course, not every case is like that. Sometimes it’s pure hate or sadness. And that can be hard, even for someone like me that’s been doing this since I was just a little child/kid. You think you’ve seen it all but you haven’t. you still get surprised at times. Sometimes in a good way and sometimes in a bad way.

Anyway, I think that’s enough of me for a couple of hours at least!
I hope your weekend will be amazing! Even if you’re just laying on the couch and eating chips! *jealous*

Not a great day..

Today hasn’t been the best day at the moment, but I’m trying to turn it around.
I’ve had to shower twice today and it’s all because of a damn face mask! I mean, first, it hurt like f*ck! And then the rest of the mask wouldn’t go away, even with makeup removal. And it got stuck in my hair when I tried to remove it, so yeah, my day hasn’t been that great yet!
Hope it gets better soon though. *Hopes*

Been staying at my dad’s this week. Yeah I know, My mom here and there and my dad here and there. But this week have been calm though, just a little thing here and there. But to be honest, I think me getting so upset and angry with this ‘’evil’’ and angry man, made him scared too somehow and let me help him over the last time I was here. I still feel that someone is still here but not as strongly as before. This time it’s just like ‘’I’m here, don’t get scared/mad again. I’ll be good’’. Not that I was ever really mad or angry, well, maybe a little angry but only to show that what he did, was not okay. But other than that, I wasn’t angry or mad. Just a little scared because I didn’t know how to handle this lost and even a little evil/mad spirit. But he had to know that this wasn’t the place for him to be. Even though that he might be somehow part of the family. With that I mean, married into the family.

On the other hand, I got a new laptop yesterday! Hope this one works better and lives longer than the other one. I had my other one for about 2-3 years but it got worse and worse in such a short amount of time. I don’t know why but it did, but hope this one is better.
The first movie I saw on it, was the movie The Shining (1980). That movie was amazing but not in a scary way. Just in a f*cked up way! But I’m not hating! Watch it if you can! A+ from me.
Even though it was a little confusing about the people in it, it was really good.

I’ve been starting to workout a little, well, not workout but I ordered a step thing that you go up and down on, you know? And because I’m not used to it, my back is killing me and its been days, so I don’t why my back is so bad right now. Maybe because of other things too, but this is the first thing I can think of. But at the same time, it’s good to move your body.